Wednesday, 25 May 2011

  • I am doing great

    Hi friends on xanga I just want to tell my secret world of friends that I just graduated! Everything is going really well for me. Although there are some very small problems at work, overall it is really good, my boss loves me and I might be having a promotion in the next coming year. I hope that happens! I just recently met a new guy. I must admit that I still think about my ex here n there ( which is the reason why I still didn't start a relationship with the new guy) I am doing really well moving on and just focusing on myself. The new guy is super nice to me...and I like almost everything about him (he just doesn't know it yet ;) ] everyone is telling me he is an upgrade from my last boyfriend but I am just trying to take things slow. Nonetheless I am very happy now. Oh I moved to a new house! Super happy...this is a new stage of my life to success! Love you.

Friday, 08 April 2011

  • When will I move on completely?

    He came back. This morning i let him he stayed at my place for a couple hours after he got off the plane - and nothing happened even though we slept right next to each other. I went to work and he left a couple hours after he woke up. No exchanges at all. Wth. 

    I try to act like i don't care or think about him anymore - but I honestly do - especially at night before i go to sleep. 

    So I've heard - Keep yourself busy, very very busy and focus on yourself. That way you have less time to think about him, I've been keeping myself way too busy. Last semester in school, working full time, spending time with the girls. But there are times when i am alone and sometimes his face and our memories flash through my head. 

    So I've heard - Talk to another guy. That doesn't work either. Cant do it when I'm thinking about my ex. Its unfair to the new friend. 

    When will I forget about him???? 

Sunday, 20 March 2011

  • you don't have to be enemies with your ex

    We broke up, but we are still great friends who care about each other. Sometimes i find it saddening that two people who use to be so close become enemies.

    Your ex is someone who you once loved, gave them everything, you ate together, slept together, and live through all the good and bad times. so unless they really screwed up and fcked you over badly, i think not every relationship needs to end badly. My almost three year relationship ended, but the day it ended we still went to the movies together and slept next to each other and talked about all the good times we had shared. It is time for us to move on and we wish the best for each other. We did not cheat on each, we broke up because we knew we had to move on, we are both too young and wants different things. We still care deeply about each other. 

    It hurts, i know. I constantly think about him. Im so use to texting n telling him what I am doing. But i must stop and i am doing pretty good at that. Everything is at a better place for me now. I wish the best for all the couples out there - dont be afraid of changes. Everything happens for a reason. Let go if you might, something better may come along. If you guys are meant to be together, you will in the end. 

Friday, 24 December 2010

  • So This is how you break up.

    After two years and 4 months of Long Distance Relationship, we finally broke up. This time, no tears, no fuss, no hard feelings. In the last six months we've gotten into many arguments leading me to think maybe we are just get mean to be together because of all the little differences we have. I often think about breaking up but when we are together and hanging out we are very happy. 

    Today is Christmas eve and we have plans to go to Atlantic City with my sister and her husband. It will be a very fun night of double dating. However this morning, because of a very very very small arguement, he decided to get mad and not talk to me anymore. I asked him different questions throughout the next four hours and went into the room hoping he will come in and cheer me up but he didnt. That is when i figured, i really need to be with someone who cares about how i feel. Someone would would put me before themself. I don't know if i can find someone like that, but i am defitnetly worth it. But it is obvious he didnt care anymore

    I text him after he told me he would not be joining me on the trip to AC. I told him we should not be together anymore and its not working out. He responded. OK. 

    That was it. 2 years is over. Everything we had was over. This leads me to think, "what exactly is love if it can end so quickly when both sides decides to give up? When i went home to go on facebook, i saw that he already blocked me. Is that really necessary. That is so childish and immature. Do you think so? I hope i can feel better very soon. 

    How do i recover from a relationship?

     

     

     

Wednesday, 15 December 2010

  • I don't miss him anymore.

    Long distance relationship sucks. 

    I think i said that twenty five times already on xanga. 

    It's been two years and a half and we barely talk on the phone anymore. His excuses - "i don't like talking on the phone" I don't blame him. Theres nothing to talk about especially if you stop talking so much. 

    The problem is now from the lack of attention i'm getting from him I'm losing feelings and i actually don't miss him anymore. How should i tell him or should i not? 

    Winter break is starts next week and he would be staying at my home for a month - i actually actually don't want him to stay at my place and live for me for a month. I'm use to being by myself and i don't know if his returning will change anything.